SUckY!

they call it the MCS.. middle child syndrome... hows does it feel...how isit like?
only the middle child will know

feeling tired and pain on the neck... duNno y restless todae.. aniwae it leads to all my pekchekness this evening...

question: isit a good thing to be a bad guy.. cos seems like u can do all things wifout ppl questioning ya..commenting on ya .., even rejecting ya..

that guy over on that side of the room... toking abt the room.. i duNno when was the last time i went into it.. i think 2 days i go in one time.. it stinks aniwae..
jus a advice.. for u all to noe me better.. don make me hate ya... no forgivings...it takes a long time for me to hate ya... those quarrel wif me will noe.. if they don speak.. tts it.. nO tok for the rest of ur life...
that idiot over there.. bad guy.. hoo0-hooo guy.. but who cares... he got its own roOM... gets ppl to stop playing the piano whenever he wants.. make a big fuss when we tok too loud... but no ones says him.. yes.. ppl do comment on him.. but if he wants something.. car.. he will get it.. regardless... isit.. scared or bo chap? u decide for urself... i think is the former one...
cos. duo yi shi.. bu ru shao yi shi...

how mani times have i seen.. his idiotic attitude.. thinks the car is his.. even after so long..
makes my heart boil when toking to him... and he doesnt set a good example... NO.. he fails in doing tat... i see him.. i see thrash.. fresh thrash... tts wat i call hate..

aniwae.. wat brings me to say all these...
went to auntys house todae... mum say im a kid.. auntys will think i petty.. as usual.. they alwaes think bad abt me compare to the dead arafat.. cos i duNno social skills.. in other words.. SUCK UP...

if that guy was over there... will he get commented.. trust me on this.. a big N O!~
was suppose to play cards.. is been ages since i went up to the west side to play cards.. play for an hour.. dad took over...don wanna to say how he done it..( i will be quite childish is i type that)..
but of cos.. i was pissed.. i was here for an objective..
not there to listen to auntys tok.. and monkeys eating peanuts... yahz?

the point is.. if the one sitting there.. was the dead arafat.. will he be taken over? i doubt so.. ppl cant wait to suck up to him.. especially the monkeys...owners of the house...

issue 2... dad buying new car.. old car.. gonna sell it.. but arafat told that idiot b4 he left tat.. the car can still be used.. so an USMS came up.. keep the car.. let the Hoo hoo guy drive...
i rejected it.. i told my mum abt it.. is 25K u are toking abt..
parents alwaes say.. the way he uses the car..veri guo fen.. wait till he owns a car...
now.. they are presenting him wif one.. come on.. but as alwaes.. i trust my parents.. tat the car will be given to him.. no questions.. is alweas like tat.. MCS.. get it?

part of the pekchekness.. come from.. cos i din do much for my overseas.. yahz.. a lot of things not done.. accom is one big impt thing...
aniwae. brings me to laptop.. arafat wants to pass me his laptop .. (in his will)... save a thousand dollars.. tell u all sth.. he bought it for second hand. so pass to me third hand.. i rather spend my own money to buy a new one.. serious.. alwaes he 1st me 2nd.. no more... no more of this shit.. hes no more number 1.. to me.. i am.. i will do things for myself..no help from him.... how long more do i need to live in his shadows...............

lifes good to me.. i don deny tat..i realli wish to staY in aussie...i look forward to it.. at the same time.. im scared.. yes im frighten to live there alone .. although is only 8 hrs away from here.. wat will happen.. but i guess it will train me.. to tok better...
i hope ppl there will appreciate more..

so wat if im the good guy.. ppl say u goOD.. pat their butts.. jus like tat.. things go wrong.. they dare to blame ya.. cos u will jus solve the problems for them..
lucky i got my gf.. she appreciates me...
jus to tell her.. i appreciate her .. alot.. of wat she done... trying to keep this relationship going..
but on the other hand...
u see... yes she noes im good to her.. but.. she wants more..more more more more...if im bad..
thats it no more! no more shitz.. get it...
this is not directed to my gf.. jus an example... (i think i will get it again)
thanks for the word file.. makes me smile.. sorry.. i doubt i can do one for ya.. cos i realli dunNo wat to type...isit me.. or is a guys thingy... i duNno.. i will think abt it

enuff of the shit. lucky i got the blog as my toilet! all the shit.. flush down here
going to motor show tomolo.. heard from DX.. a lot of gals.. foto time....
is 2.. gonna sleep..

OUT!
nitez