What will happen?

here i am .. lyin to the mattress.. wif pillow supporting my chin..
have been tossing around for 20 mins...
in 2 hrs time.. i have to get up.. and send my sis to sch...
and my day starts.. wif 20 more days to go....
cant get to sleep.. been thinking

am i able to get on with life over there..?
am i able to live well and settle there?
am i able to concentrate well on my studies over there?
am i able to get my honours?
am i able to return home and proud of myself.. and tell myself i have not wasted time and money over there.. and i mean alot of time and money.
am i able to go over there and blend into the culture?
am i able to settle things and rub shoulders with the ang mo there?
am i able to go over there and not be be bullied?
am i able to stay out of trouble?
will i lose my way..?
will i feel helpless?

i can tell my myself that i am fortunate that i can continue my studies or rather further my studies.. parents save up for me.. im grateful ...they let me make my own decisions.. i love them for it... they trust me to go over there.. i thank them for it..
am i able to return all the trust and love to them.... i don hope so.. I MUST DO IT..

not all ppl can go overseas and study.. tok abt the worst cases.. tsunami has swept the school away.. and here i am worrying... who doesnt worry... every human will..

i jus pray to those all above us...
that my family will be of good health when im there
that my dads job will be as safe as a steel bowl..
and give me strength to take care of myself and not let my family worry...

all the best clement.. go for it..
is jus like counting down to the day that u enlist for army..

can imagine the scene at the airport...
im not avoiding the scene i will face it.. and i will make the story a happy ending...